Why I dropped back in.

[Lexion]

Caveat : I'm not good at fiction.

So, this is from my life.

Why I dropped back in.

As a child, I was taught by my Dad
to be my own person.

Follow your heart and dreams.

Which, I did.

My Mother thought it was a great idea
to ridicule my actions and choices.

So, I chose to follow my Dad's wisdom.

I became my own person, and did what
I felt was correct for me.

My Dad supported me to the point until
I became self-destructive.

My Mother insisted at this point to keep
promoting my destruction.

She persecuted me, and insisted that I was
a piece of shit, but that she loved me.

I believed her.

How wrong I was.

I remember driving home with my Dad, after
swim practice.

I had done something juvenile (don't remember
what) but I had been reprimanded for it.

Dad said "you're almost an adult, and need to
act like an adult".

I started crying and said I didn't want to be an
adult.

I think I was 14.

My Mother continued to enable my actions, while
at the same time reminding me that I was a piece
of shit.

The boil came to a head when I was 16 or so.

My Mother told me the only reason I had friends
was because of money, and drugs.

I went fucking ballistic.

A divorce ensued, because my Dad finally saw what
my Mother was doing to my head.

*a few years pass*

Homeless, I turned to a family tradition.

The military.

Not to drop back in, but to find myself. My skills.

I never felt part of the military family, but I did
learn quite a bit about how "circles" work.

Once I met my soon-to-be wife, I had an epiphany.

I didn't need that stuff.

Being myself was enough.

Long story short, I dropped back in, because
I could.

[egg]

Thanks for sharing, man. I try to do some writing. If I could give you a piece of advice, unpack your thoughts. Your mother called you a piece of shit and constantly reminded you of that "fact". Give examples. How did she do that? Was it straight out, "you're a piece of shit"? It's your story so you know it intimately but your readers do not.
Pretty good, though. Thanks for sharing.

[hp]

Thanks for sharing that Lex. Glad you found THE person.

[Lexion]

Hell, Egg.....where would I begin ?

I was first born, but treated like
dirt.

Took years to figure out what was
going on, as it was the norm.

I think, one of the most poignant moments
was at a swim meet, where my Mother said
I had no chance at placing.

I threw three first place medals in her lap,
and said I fucking hate you.

[egg]

Hell, Egg.....where would I begin ?

I was first born, but treated like
dirt.

Took years to figure out what was
going on, as it was the norm.

I think, one of the most poignant moments
was at a swim meet, where my Mother said
I had no chance at placing.

I threw three first place medals in her lap,
and said I fucking hate you.

That's a great place to start, man. I'm sorry about what your mom put you through. It's shit. On the other hand, you totally overcame adversity both then and in the long run.
Anyway, the specifics, like your swim meet story, are the meat of the story. Just saying. Sounds like you've got a treasure trove of writing material at your disposal. You probably don't find it overly interesting because you've lived with it your whole life but many people will find it interesting or find something to relate to. Or, you might not want to speak about it. Honesty can hurt.
Not saying that's the case here. I know I skim over things I write about because it's something I want to hide. Anyway, I bet you could get dozens, if not hundreds of stories out of your life.

[Lexion]

Yeah.

And the majority still bring tears.

Some happy, some sad.

Thanks for the kind words.

[MrPenny]

I wonder if our mothers were sisters......

[Lexion]

Heh.

You get it, Penny.

Looking back, would you change
anything ?

[egg]

Yeah.

And the majority still bring tears.

Some happy, some sad.

Thanks for the kind words.

My pleasure, man. You'd be surprised, while the stories may be different in content and intensity, there are many who could relate. It's one reason to write. My mother is and was fantastic, my father is a whole other story.

[Lexion]

My pleasure, man. You'd be surprised, while the stories may be different in content and intensity, there are many who could relate. It's one reason to write. My mother is and was fantastic, my father is a whole other story.

For context.

My Dad was career Navy.

Away 6 months to a year
at a time.

Heh. I first heard about Groom
from him, in the late 70's.

So, my life with my Mother was all
I really knew.

I thought it was normal.

[egg]

For context.

My Dad was career Navy.

Away 6 months to a year
at a time.

Heh. I first heard about Groom
from him, in the late 70's.

So, my life with my Mother was all
I really knew.

I thought it was normal.

Yeah, what we grow up with we mistake for normality, for sure.
By the way, great line for a story: "So, my life with my Mother was all
I really knew.

I thought it was normal."
Probably put right after an example of two of how she treated you. I'm telling you, don't take your own story and words for granted.

[Lexion]

I take nothing for granted.

Believe me, that bubble got
popped years ago.

[Pam]

Sorry to hear that Lex, a mother's love should be the best thing you receive from her in life.

I am glad you dropped back in :D

[Lexion]

Pam, ever watched SLC punk ?

[Pam]

Pam, ever watched SLC punk ?

No? Where would I go to watch?

[Lexion]

It's a tale about a kid in SLC, that's a Punk.

He sees reality.

Best last line, ever.

Please watch it.

[skunk]

It's on netflix.

[Lexion]

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Just a taste.

Please find it.

[RubyRocket]

edit, cause you don't want to read it anyway.

[Lexion]

I read it, before the edit.

No, it doesn't help.

It's old news.

[Pam]

Okay, watched... was that you?

And yes, what he said at the end is very true.

[Hazelnut]

Being myself was enough.

Long story short, I dropped back in, because
I could.




Do you ever think that the shit that happens to us at the hands of those we are born to are the test?

You spoke about "normal". Once you get to our age, you realize that normal is abnormal.