Why won't they leave me alone?

[ineverleavehome]

i think the problem here is with america. I unfortunately live here. I cannot leave. maybe because i cannot leave my house, for everyone here is against me. every time I have left my house since I quit drinking, I find myself surrounded by people who want me to beat them. Since this is against the law, I have found myself jailed too many times. So I try to NEVER leave. Now I find that I have government agencies coming to my house to arrest me for things I have not done, thereby forcing me to leave my house to go to court appearances, bond condition meetings..etc. I believe they know I cannot keep it together long enough outside to commit violent acts, so they are going to get me no matter what I do. Maybe jail and prison are the only answers for me right? But then again, if the government is trying to kill me, those are the two places where it would be easiest for them to accomplish this task without being implied as the wrongdoers. But why in the hell do they want me dead? I haven't even found any evidence to expose them yet. if anyone has the goods on uncle sam, I need to know. I will bring it to these arseholes sooner or later! LEAVE ME THE F**K ALONE!

[theeindiee]

They've found your weakness: aggressiveness and agitation at people because people on the "outside" or the "normies" are fucking insane. I empathize. People are fucking insane and you wanna choke them into sanity. The sooner you realize that they ARE that way because mostly they are hopelessly brainwashed, the sooner you can feel empathy for them and perhaps calm down a little... maybe even learn to do some meditation. Seriously, it does a body good.... although occasionally you get this thing that happens at the base of your spine... kinda makes you.... loopy for a while.... but basic meditation won't do that unless you've got some powerful mojo behind that consciousness of yours... which you do.... but it's not focused.

They won't leave you alone, man. If they have you targeted for some reason, they are COUNTING on you to retaliate with violence and destruction. That way, they can ruin your credibility to the fullest. If you become a murderer, you're gone. You'll never ever be able to escape or to affect any change either in your life nor anyone else's in this lifetime.

It doesn't matter who "they" are. "They" do exist, though. It might even turn out to be people you wouldn't expect. There are forces at play here which are more than just people in leagues with government agencies. In the face of insanity, you must become sane. You must find a way to rise above it. We may never escape it in our lifetime, but we might be able to affect enough people so that in a generation or two, they can escxape... but ya never know. All we know is that we have right here, right now. What's your ambitions or dreams? Follow those, no matter what. You don't need to play the game of the system to do it. They hate when you change for trhe better. That's how you fight them. Change for the better, and never let their shit get you down. I guarantee you, unless you know who killed Kennedy or who perpetrated 9/11 and you have the trigger button with a fingerprint in your possession.... than this is all just mind games and your life is probably not in danger. Become sound of mind somehow. Meditate, do art, writ a book, find a forest and just walk alone in it for a few hours.

The reason you drank was to suppress your awareness of how fucked up everything is. Now that you don't have that crutch anymore, become aware of it again... but become aware of what they don't have which you have. What don't they have which you have? That will be your weapon.

[skunk]

That was pretty sound advice indie.

[boycotteverything]

I find myself surrounded by people who want me to beat them.welcome to amkon then.

[hp]

At least you are now aware of the game. Do your best to keep it together. As you become accustomed to your change you will be able to see more clearly and make a better plan to survive these people. Try not to falter, keep your eyes on the goal.

[Watcher-In-The-Shadows]

Um, first off, welcome to Amkon........
Don't think thinking that everyone wants you to beat them is rather egocentric?
Just saying.......

[GhostOfCaptSpaulding]

I will bring it to these arseholes sooner or later! LEAVE ME THE F**K ALONE!

You're at AmKon now...feel free to call f*cking arseholes fucking assholes if you want.

Hell, you can start with me for my statement about cutting off a drunk in this thread (http://www.amkon.net/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=42&t=6825) if you like... :mrgreen:

Wait, I think you already kinda did in your PM to me...it's all good though.

But, as it's been said, just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you...

[Watcher-In-The-Shadows]

Or that they are. :lol:

[Cogburn]

Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.... I thought it was indiee's sock.

Now there's two of them. :)

[Lexion]

Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.... I thought it was indiee's sock.

Now there's two of them. :)

Exactly my thoughts.

This should get interesting.

Regards,
Lex

[lala]

Don't really know how to take what you've said . . . you come a cross to me as scary, sorry don't mean, to be mean, but the beat thing doesn't do it for me . . .and I know 'the system' once in, is hard to move away from . . . but no back ground . . . .it make it hard to comment . . .but can see your fuck off and had enough, . . . new direction needed. . .you've started. to stop drinking is hard, then you go through feeling abit lost as you end up looking at things differently, friendships, lifestyles . . . its almost like you've changed worlds, it's called growing up. . . 8) . . . imo Indy hit the nail on the head for you.

[guinnessford]

Eh, If "they" wanted you dead, you wouldnt have made the second word of your post...

But, Welcome to Amkon fucker!

Feel free to talk to us about anything, we are fairly decent people here, and may even try to help you.

[Eyeforalie]

and may even try to help you.

Or them. Who ever has more mulah.



Welcome to fuckin Amkon-Beiotch

[theeindiee]

That was pretty sound advice indie.

That's advice from the ether... not theeindiee. theeindiee wants to crack skulls, too. But the ether is my shepherd now. I can fantasize still, thoug! :beatdown: :rifle: :machinegun: :jedi: :behead: :hang: :banghead: :banghead: :beathorse: