Boondock
02-18-2008, 02:27 PM
the fuck is his problem?
IF there is one, i feel forsaken....
what gives...
chronic back problems for more than 10 years...
my son that lives but a mile down the road yet i hardley get to see him.
mental problems....like the bipolar
father that killed himself a couple years ago.
a relationship with my wife that is starting to feel strain...i just found out about that one yesterday....my wife is starting to feel 'whatever' about my bipolar....she says it is hard for her cause i am not happy a lot of the time and she worries a lot about me...
there are other things that go on that i have not shared on the board here. things that happen/that i do...
i told her i want her to come to my next talk therapy section with me cause hopefully it will help her too.
she says she feels like she don't know what to do and i dont know what to tell her...
what did i do to deserve this life? this life of pain...this life of mental strain?
i am about to get put on another anti pshycotic that i am scared to death of...
high risk of type 2 diabetes. weekly blood draws to make sure the whit eblood count stays up there. ekg to make sure the lining of my heart stays strong......
IF there is a god, he sure don't give a shit about me.....thus, i don't give a shit about him.....even if it was somehow proven tomorrow i still would not accept him...too many things have happened in my life and i don't want to hang with a god that allows it......
so IF there is a god out there, pick a finger on each hand...you know which ones
IF there is one, i feel forsaken....
what gives...
chronic back problems for more than 10 years...
my son that lives but a mile down the road yet i hardley get to see him.
mental problems....like the bipolar
father that killed himself a couple years ago.
a relationship with my wife that is starting to feel strain...i just found out about that one yesterday....my wife is starting to feel 'whatever' about my bipolar....she says it is hard for her cause i am not happy a lot of the time and she worries a lot about me...
there are other things that go on that i have not shared on the board here. things that happen/that i do...
i told her i want her to come to my next talk therapy section with me cause hopefully it will help her too.
she says she feels like she don't know what to do and i dont know what to tell her...
what did i do to deserve this life? this life of pain...this life of mental strain?
i am about to get put on another anti pshycotic that i am scared to death of...
high risk of type 2 diabetes. weekly blood draws to make sure the whit eblood count stays up there. ekg to make sure the lining of my heart stays strong......
IF there is a god, he sure don't give a shit about me.....thus, i don't give a shit about him.....even if it was somehow proven tomorrow i still would not accept him...too many things have happened in my life and i don't want to hang with a god that allows it......
so IF there is a god out there, pick a finger on each hand...you know which ones